My Dearest Cori,
We may have had the concern that your family might see this, but I've decided to throw caution to the wind. Let them see this! Let them read about my love for you! However, if they do read it, I do hope they'll read it from beginning to end, for only then will they understand.
Part of this may be hard to read for you, but I do think it needs to get out.
In my desire to join you, I've left no stone unturned. However, try as I might, I still cannot find a way to make sure that we will be able to make ends meet. Yes, that is why they're keeping me from joining you, but please understand, as I do, it's only because they love me so much, they don't want me to get into trouble.
I guess this is one thing our respective families have in common, even if they may express it very differently. Both of our families love their children, and perhaps also fear the unknown.
One aspect of this: Whereas in The Netherlands weapon possession by the average citizen is nearly unheard of, it appears to be relatively common in America. The worry I feel whenever I hear of another mass shooting that may have robbed me of you, my love, or robbed you of someone whose help you can't do without...words fail me!
After watching Life 2.0, I cannot blame your parents for worrying that things will turn out the same way for us as they did for at least some of the people shown in that video. As vulnerable as you are, baby, it would be even more disastrous for you than for them. How ever certain I feel we will not end that way, how can we say we're sure? Viera Manor Assisted Living may offer us a way out here, because then you may continue to have the support you need, even if our relationship is not destined to last.
One of the things I've grown to love about you, is your sensitivity to how others feel. Did you inherit this from your mom or dad? If so, then I can only wonder how they cannot sense the tension you feel in Tony's presence. All I can say to that, is that, if I were in his shoes, I would want to know what's bothering you.
I long to have you experience again the joy that Second Life gave you; the ease of going places you've never been to before. Having said that... I long to know you freed from your family's misconception that I only wanted to have you in a virtual sense. Nothing could possibly be further from the truth. I see every last kilometer between us as one too many.
Most of all, I hope that either Tony or I (whichever is best for you), can be with you in real life, and help you melt the tension away, which you must have been feeling for many years now.
I do still dream of being with you, one day, but I must be honest about my chances of reaching you, and I do not want you to lose what you have, in your hope for something that cannot be. Your joy and comfort are more important to me than my own.
I love you, my C.
Your Berty <3